Ramble On

 

***This is Stanley, my current dog. She sits in my window frightening foes and waiting for a friend.***

So, I’m selling my house, next spring. I live in an awesome house in an awesome neighborhood, but I’ve lived here ten years. It’s time to do something different. I’m going to get a deluxe apartment in the sky, on the other side of the river, and I am going to walk and bike till my feet are calloused and my butt is raw.

I need a space for only myself, and for better and worse only need to live for myself. My current energies go toward work, my athletic endeavors, my friends and family, and some other things I will add to my “do” persona in the near future. Right now I have neither the time nor desire to care for a house on my own anymore.

. . . time I was on my way
Thanks to you, I'm much obliged for such a pleasant stay
but now it's time for me to go, the autumn moon lights my way
for now I smell the rain, and with it, pain
and it's headed my way
Aw, sometimes I grow so tired. . . .

. . . I've been this way ten years to the day.

~Robert Plant/Led Zepplin

So on my way I am. Bruises healed but soreness remains, that dreaminess of the autumn past reflects now as only a dream, Options present, though, are clear: Stay and just roll on, stay and get a dog—sort of go back to my former self—or move faraway, to somewhere I can dance and play outside year round. Or, just radically shift my existence locally. That’s the good thing about cities, especially when you have neighboring ones that are quite different. You can change pretty dramatically without loadin’ up the truck and headin’ outstate.

So to Minneapolis I will go next spring to live my life on the other side, leaving behind some friendly folks as well as some ghosts here in St. Paul. My beat goes round and round, and as I trust myself and others, I trust to wherever my path leads.

"We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone--but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy." 

--Walter Anderson

This, my friends, I know.